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Name: Jennifer
Birthday: 6/8/1984
Gender: Female
Interests: Music, Movies, Dancing, Singing, hanging out, Swimming, Learning, and I'm trying to pick up reading...still.
Expertise: Well, I'm studying to be in Public Relations and Advertsing, don't think I'm an expert quite yet.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Nonprofit
Message: message meEmail: email me
Website: visit my website
Member Since:
1/5/2004
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| wow...it's really been a long time since i've blogged. too long. well here it goes:
so lately i've really been thinking about who I've become. I realize i don't recognize myself. not that I don't like who i've become, but that it's as if i've left a lot of the things i love behind. i found a CD the other day i hadn't listened to in years. i only ever liked one song on it - goodbye by Plankeye. a dear friend of mine introduced me to it, i hope you know who you are ;). we would drive down the road with it on repeat on a beautiful fall day with the windows down and the wind blowing in our faces. we'd just take it all in. listening to this song reminded me of that and it felt good. and then it took me to another place in my life - when i was in texas. i remember introducing my roommates to the song that meant so much to me. we'd sing at the top of our lungs, that amazing part near the end, i say the climax and the whole point of the song. i sang it loud again and i could feel myself just sink back to those days - you know the feeling. kinda like the feeling you get when you are at the pivotal moment of complete contentment and satisfaction, of enjoying something so great that you can never forget it. that's what i felt the other night in my room as i sang along with that song again. oh how wonderful. thank you for those good memories. i'll never forget them.
speaking of pivotal - alex, my husband, and I are at a pivotal point in our lives. we're trying to figure out where we're going with our lives and what our goals are. it's tough enough trying to figure it out by yourself, and it just gets even tougher when you have someone else to include and consider. the Lord is certainly challenging us and teaching us. basically, we have two great opportunities staring us in the face. one can give us stability now but we don't know for how long and the other is unstable now but has great potential for the future. it's a huge prayer for us cause we have no idea what to do and are just waiting on the Lord to show us what He wants. even then, either one is a huge step of faith. you know what's wonderful about this whole "trial" in our marriage? once we get to the other side, it will be magnificent! thank you, Lord, for opportunities.
if I may, i'd like to talk about my husband. i just want you all to know what kind of a man he is. talk about a man! he's so patient with me especially when i drive him crazy, and for those of you who know me, i can drive people crazy! he tries to act tough most of the time and when he needs to be, he is. but i'm so glad my dad convinced me to give him a chance because there is so much to him. he's got such a huge heart and when i got a glimpse of it, i was addicted. he's no where near perfect but i love that about him because i don't feel like i have to be perfect to be with him. he tells the corniest jokes but he makes me laugh nonstop. when i'm around him, i can't get enough of him! i mean, i just want to crawl up in his lap like a cat and just be with him. he's become my best friend. ok, i'll be done for now, but more will come later. :)
life is good - not to be cliche, but it's nice to be content. | | |
| Hey! Hey! Just wanted to give an update on life. I did get the internship in Nashville; however, I turned it down because it's not what the Lord wanted. I'm at home with my family and interning with a local company here. The Lord knew I needed some family time and I'm glad I listened. My sister is leaving for East Asia in July for two years and my brother just graduated from high school yesterday. I'm headed into my senior of college so this summer was the last summer we could all be together in one house for an extended period. Transition is hard, but so amazing. I'm trying to take it all day by day which isn't something I'm good at because I'm a planner and I like to know where I'm going. The Lord has been teaching me to just trust. Trust, that's it. And trusting is one of the most difficult lessons I've learned. It involves letting go and not being in control. Allowing Him to change my circumstances whether I want them to be changed or not, bringing people in and taking people out of my life even it hurts, but all the while trusting that it's in His will and knowing that He is the molder and perfector. Brokeness comes along with this lesson... it hurts, but it's beautiful.
Please be praying that I hear Him clearly and when I do, that I listen and obey. Also, I have applied for a teaching position for after I graduate. It's to teach english in Thailand for a year!!!! Please pray that the Lord's will may stick out and happen. I love you all and think of you often. Take care. | | |
| I am still doing the school thing...I'm in the latter portion of my junior year and this summer I have to get an internship in my field of study. My major is Communications - Public Relations and Advertising. I am currently trying to get an internship with Fervent Records based out of Nashville, TN. For those of you who don't know who they are, Big Daddy Weave, By the Tree, Barlow Girl and a few others are signed with them!!! Isn't that awesome!? So the purpose in writing this is to ask you to please pray that I get this internship. I happened upon it somewhat accidentally, but it's amazing that I did. Getting this internship could open a lot of doors, maybe into the music scene or a job with them, something could come of it. I'm really excited. I'm sending my resume tomorrow. Please pray. I love you all so much and miss you! Jenn | | |
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| Being in Anderson has been amazing! God has shown me confirmation all around. I really needed a job and I wanted to work at a Montessori school, He provided, and I love it! I enjoy my job so much and the kids are amazing! I work with 3-5 year olds, and I will admit, it is trying sometimes, but very rewarding. God has shown me that I have the ability to reach these children's needs and only through Him though. It's amazing because they will be napping and I'll be praying over them, asking God to help them get rest and protect them through their lives. And at 3 years old they are slready going through so much, divorce, rival parents, abuse, sin in the world...it's crazy. I pray that God protects them through all of it. And now I am a communications major - Public Relations and Advertising, trying to also double major in Marketing, and I love it!!!! I'm doing really well, and I know that God hand-crafted this. I was so confused about what to do, but I asked people what they thought I should do and so many people said Communications, and ya know, they were right. I enjoy it so much, and I'm doing so well. It's a heck of a lot of work though! Let me tell you, group projects every week, two going on at the same time, class in the morning, work from 12:30-6, class in the PM on some days, and having a boyfriend, friends, and family. Not to mention study time and prayer time. Life is crazy, and I'm enjoying it. I joined a Women's Bible study, I so needed it, and to have those women to talk to and share with, listen to and pray with, it's been so refreshing. I love how God does that, refreshes us, like a cool morning in the Fall. Oh it's amazing! I do want to let those of you who read this know, that even though everything has been great it's also been hard spiritually, because the Devil is attacking me from all sides. I never thought i would have a problem with alcohol or smoking or bad language, but in the past couple weeks, the Devil has been tempting, lying to me, deceiving me about who i am and where I'm going. He's lied to me about what I need and he has won too many times, and to win once is too many! I'm telling you this because I need your prayer, your intercession. I'm not one to ask for help or to tell people my sin, but I need prayer and the past couple weeks have been humbling. God has never left my side, even when I walk away... ...the other morning at church, my pastor was talking about sin and repentance, how sometimes we get tired of repenting for the same thing and get tired of talking to God about the same sin over and over again, because we know we'll go right back to it. that day, I realized i was that person, I wasn't repenting and I wasn't sorry for sinning against God, i was sorry that I would get disciplined for it. ...I want you to know that I repented, and I desperately don't want to go back to my sin, and I'm asking you to pray for me, that I would rely on God's strength to resist the devil when I am weak, tired, stressed and worn out. all that said, I ask that you forgive me for not living a life of honor, integrity, and character. I love you - Jenn | | |
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